haha

this is the kinda song i am feeling at 2:51 in the am.

Looking back and morning comesDon't find your face in your glassTake the moonlight by the tailIt's a rainy sight You're shadingWhat is that It's just the sameWhat is trying in your crownI'm spending in my glass, walking backSo wear my glass You're fadingI'm waiting so long...I'm waiting so long...I'm waiting so long...I'm waiting...Blowing up The storm's aroundDon't turn your face to your backIn a silence Have a better dreamSing into the wind You're shadingThe rainy winds will wash awayAll what your want in your crownThere is an end but it's endlessThough anywise we're fadingI'm waiting so long...I'm waiting so long...I'm waiting so long...I'm waiting...What is that It's just the sameWhat is trying in your crownI'm spending in my glass walking backSo wear my glass You're fadingI'm waiting so long...I'm waiting so long...I'm waiting so long...I'm waiting so long...I'm waiting so long...I'm waiting so long...I'm waiting so long...I'm waiting...

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Happy Holidays

Thumpety thump thump. Look at Frosty go.

Honestly, I HAVE had my fill of Christmas related music. I hear it at subway stations and stores. Well that's it, Christmas is here. Music needs to go back to normal. I am not sure yet what I wanna do for NYE. Having some wild sex would be nice but who knows if that is gonna happen. Maybe a trip to AC is in order to finally spend a New Year's ARRIVAL over there.

well this was some bullshit

I was right there but did not get in the Wu Tang show. I was not about to pay 50 for that bullshit. I was honestly more dissappointed in the crowds I saw going in. It was mostly young, young Kats. I was like what the fuck, where are the older Wu Tang heads. They must've refused to freeze their fucking balls off like I did and shell out $50 to see these old bastards ( I think Meth was not even there either) I have no idea if even Ghost face was there. He seemed to have alot of beef with Rza lately.

The Wu is too slammin for these Cold Killin labels

I know there is a Wu Tang show tonight but shit I am not paying 50 bucks to go. I am calling a contact of mine from Epic Records back in the day, Razor Sharp and also Def Jam Island. mAYBE i get in free, I know if they are in the house then they didn' t pay for shit tonight. So Maybe I get the WU for F-R-E-E.

today

This sucks, not getting out of work till 10pm. Damn, holidays it is not even that crowded that late but whatever. Only a few days for these late hours. Happy Hanukkah everyone. Happy Kwanzaa as well.

Get ready for the circus

I really don't want get into all the things that happen to me this week but I feel somehow now I feel more stressed in situations where I am not really in stress or should not feel stressed. This is a big week because there are alot of parties going on before Christmas. I mean it is definitely fun to get your drink on but then there is the OMG I gotta wake up tomorrow morning and then you wake up and still think you may be drunk (first time that happened to me). Oh well, I survived. I just feel sort of unsettled not by the whole you could lose your job soon anyone in America but just I didn't set bigger goals for myself at 29 yrs old. I am not saying oh that is it, my life is over but I just would like to get more focused on many goals not just career oriented ones. Several storylines lie ahead for me. So let's give it a go. I do need to get back to working out and playing basketball it helped me stay so levelheaded over the years.

I have been kind of out of it on the celeb front

I don't even know what Lindsey Whore Lohan has been up to. Since she hooked up with Sam she stay out of public eye at least a little. Tom Cruise's kid Suri though still pops up with some unbeleivealbe requests and stuff. I don't wanna believe but you never know.

This is how u fucking dunk on someone

Now this is what I call nasty grinding

I don't think I was even this aggressive in my days at the infamous China Club.

Another look back at top of 2007

It is weird looking at a movie a second or third time compared to the initial viewing in the theater, so with that said 2007 movies I have seen again and liked more or less. (Top picks)

*Live Free or Die Hard (This movie was fucking so restricted in the theater, I was running my mouth bitching on how I hated it: Then enter the DVD release unrated version and I loved it)

*Grindhouse: Planer Terror (The movie is great it is such campy sci Fi/horror fun from the 1970's, but I loved it the first viewing in the theater, now I find way too many boring parts with the movie, I generally only see the beginning again when I watch over)

*Knocked Up ( I really liked Knocked up, the first or second time I saw this movie, only complaint was it was too long a movie, that whole Vegas scene could've been cut out)

*Zodiac ( I saw it in the theater the first time and I was mad bored. I honestly must've had alot of shit to do that day so I didn't wanna be in the theater for more than 2 hours, I liked it alot more second time)

*Into the Wild ( This movie was awesome, saw it on DVD only not in the theater)

*No Country for Old Men ( I really liked the movie but there was way too much hype for it. I saw it luckily for free in theaters, it was funny about 4 people I know had bought their tickets advanced then tried to get and it was like SOLD OUT, so I went to the part where u give the ticket about 2 mins before showtime, I was like shit, guys it is sold out, see you later but the guy taking the tickets was like just go in Don't worry about it. I was oh shit, thanks alot bro. I had to sit near the front but hey it was free)

*Juno ( I kind of hated and loved this movie at the same time, very good first time viewing, now after all that bullshit Oscar hype I hate it)

*Black Snake Moan ( Awesome movie, end of story)

*Transformers ( I liked it at first in the theater I guess because of the hype, now I just see it as an overrated piece of shit)

*Bourne Ultimatum (Fucking awesome, got 1000 times better with a second viewing, I LOVED IT!!)

*300 ( "This is Sparta!!!!" Infamous scene was awesome, the movie was really cool.)

*Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix( Not a bad movie considering I am really not an HP fan at all, actually I don't know why I ended up even seeing it, only saw HP 1 and 2 before)

Must see movies in 2008

These are movies I have either seen in theaters or heard it is a must see

Bolt, Frost/Nixon, The Boy in the Striped Pajamas, Frozen River, Hamlet 2 (seen, it was pretty good), Milk, Traitor (seen, fairly decent movie, not excellent but not terrible), Vicky Cristina Barcelona (seen, excellent, one of best of '08), The Wackness, Wall-E, The Wrestler, The Dark Knight( seen, excellent), Iron Man (seen, very solid movie), The Incredible Hulk ( seen, very good movie alot better than I thought it would be), Snow Angels( not great but maybe see it just for shock value), Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull ( I kind of hated it, but kind of loved it), Tropic Thunder (fucking decent movie, worth seeing at least in theater or rental), Slumdog Millionaire ( awesome movie)

I know this is not myspace, but here is a survey

favorite animal: Snakes first then cats.
favorite drink: Vodka and Cranberry Juice and Fruit punch a close second.
favorite singer: Old School Mariah Carey (Vision of Love), Shakira (current)
favorite show: No real fav that I follow week by week, but day by day I try to watch at least one repeat of That 70's show, Seinfeld and Saved by the Bell, I could watch those over and over.
favorite website: www.yahoo.com
favorite place to shop: Adidas store, Modells or Best buy
favorite color: Black
lake or pond? Lake
A, B or C? C
Outside or inside? Outside
foil or plastic wrap? Foil
hamburger or taco? Hamburger with pickles and onions.
meal or snack? Snack
Wii or xbox? Xbox

What was the last lie you said?
I have no clue, it was probably some little white lie.
Have you ever cried during a movie?
yes, sure have but it was dark in the theater so no one saw. I have no problem getting a cry in a few times a year.
Have you ever danced in the rain?
yeah it was this past march.
Have you ever been drunk?
sure have, might get drunk later tonight.
Have you ever tried tried drugs?
The marijuana makes my eyes bright red like brake lights. Nah, only like once or twice a year I do, nothing harder.
Do you smoke?
Nope, I hate cigs.
How old were you when you received your first kiss?
I was in the third grade. A friend of mine was all guess what I just did. I went under the desk and kissed blah blah blah.
Who was your first kiss?
Some girl who was the whore of the third grade. She went under the desk with a few other guys I believe.
Have you ever had phone sex?
Sure, it was hot.
Have you ever been rejected by a crush?
yeah, I can't remember but it happened
What is your favorite sport to play?
Basketball, I am ballin in the building.
Are you single?
Yes I am.
Are you in love?
not with anyone I can reach out to, celeb love interest don't count.
Have you ever told someone you loved them but didn't mean it?
Only once to my recollection, but I knew the relationship was ended anyway so I was just like "C'mon, you know I love you". I was really out of bullets, she was hitting me with all kinds of complaints.
Have you ever showered with someone?
Sure, not recently though
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?
Sure, why not say that...
Do you like to cuddle?
Sure I do, I wanna cuddle and grab some booty right now, if possible
Have you ever kissed a stranger?
Sure, who hasn't
Have you ever ran away from home?
Nope, I had no need to as a young buck.
If you have a kid, what gender and what names do u want them to be?
I don't know, hopefully a son. Names there are some possibilities.
Are you a virgin?
Nope, but I seriously had not had sex in 9 years until this past september.

A little football survey for your entertainment

1. Who is your favorite team?
The New York Giants, my fav team, New Orleans Saints are my second.

2. Be honest, do you think they will make the playoffs this year?
Of Course, they are on a roll and are the super bowl champs. Saints right now are on the bubble but most likely will head to playoffs as well.

3. Which player has been the most valuable for your team this season?

Plaxico (lol) just for media attention and helping everyone else actually think about football. I think Steve Smith, Brandon Jacobs, Derrick Ward are great, Antonio Pierce is excellent on defense and Carney is doing a great job kicking field goals.

4. Which player has been the most disappointing?

Plaxico, that guy is a loser. Why did he carry a gun to LQ, that club is not that gangsta anyway. I don't even think the spot is poppin like it used to be. Kevin Boss is a little dissappointing I thought he would have more touchdowns now without Shockey on the team.

5. Have you gone to any games this year (college or pro)?

Nope, no college or pros. I went to a Redskins home game last year around this time in December. It was good game and it was sad right after Sean Taylor death. It was a cool roadtrip down to Fed Ex Field to see Skins and the Bills.

So I am trying to think of ways

that UFC can be improved. I like the presentation of the fights they present. They definitely have the WWE style going for them. Guys come out with cool entrances and talk mad shit but this gay man holding for 3 mins on the ground is like slow death. If you have ever seen PRIDE in Japan those refs do not tolerate any gay man holding at all. If you are tied up on the ground for a minute they will break it up and warn u about a DQ. I need to actually watch more of the history of UFC not just the latest Brock Lesnar heavyweight fight. Good show though you know a quick fight to entertain the masses.

I was just trying to think off the top of my head how many different languages

can I say swear words in;;

Lets see

Pezzo di merda. Figlio di Puttana, Vaca la Mencia -Italian-

claro que si puedo se dicer hijo de la gran puta -Spanish-
Chupa mi huevos

Na kaleni, suka (on your knees, bitch) -Russian-

Vace, vace ting ne Fei ( Hurry up bitch, suck my dick) -Chinese or Maybe Korean I forgot-

I hit that shit up hard -English-

Oh, merde -oh shit- French-

Battyboy, Fassy, Chichiman, Rassclot, Sketel - Jamaican

Baka, Chin Chin, Kuso, Shimata(Shit) -Japanese

EL Azobay(?) Arabic

Yuh mudda cunt -Trinidadian

Lutsch meine eier ( Suck my balls) -German


I thought I knew some others but off the top of my head I can't think of any. I learned these a long time ago too. Funny how you can only remember curses in many languages.

Feeling so good, Just the way that we get when It's 9 in afternoon

Hopefully this weekend will be a good one. I will try to just relax Sat morning and stuff do some clean up around the crib then at night, try to have some fun and finally go to BLVD get my drink on.

This is that bullshit

I don't know even with having Wednesday off this week seems very unorthodox. I have gone through 100 different emotions. Monday started off shitty. I pretty much was just not in a good mood then Tuesday I woke up with the Absolute worst headache. It was one of those right above the right eye and I stupidly did not take any aspirin before going to work. I was almost crying by the time I was on the train because I was in so much distress. I actually think 2 or 3 tears made their way down my right eye for the first time in a while. Finally did get some pills at work so I was ok. Like I said, this week is not the Worst EVER but I just really couldn't give a fuck about this week so far.